Too busy??

I know I am.

I have been too busy to get enough sleep and since I can’t sleep, I either lack appetite or I just eat because I have to and I eat whatever I can get my hands. Now that’s the worst kind of disservice really that I can do to myself.

I have been too busy running from office to university. Too busy keeping up with work and assignments to focus on quality. Too busy to pay attention to the fact that half the year has already gone by and I am suddenly faced with the realization that I have only six more months to go before the year is over.

 

I have been too busy.

You know I am starting to hate that… being too busy. I want to be ‘not busy’, not running to class or to work or to keep up with some other commitment which I had made. I long for days like today, when I can wake up in the morning knowing that this day can be anything I make of it because all the hours in it are mine. I can read, write, nap, meditate, listen to music, engage in some self-love to revitalize myself. Days like this … I finally have time to improve Me … my thoughts, my life, my health. To concentrate on who I am and who I want to be, to evaluate whether or not I am in the right road for it.

These past few months have also taught me humility. I am a nerd who has trouble accepting anything less than A grade on my papers. My grades are in par with full-time students, youngsters who are not worrying about paying tuition, mortgage or getting forward in a career that spans nearly 2 decades. In my striving to hold on to A grades, I have stressed, worried and freaked over papers, assignments and never-ending exams. In moments of despair, I have thought of a blind guy in my class and asked myself if he can do it, why can’t I?

While all this striving undoubtedly expands my horizon, it has also taken away the joy I had in learning. And days like today I realize that it is not my commitment that I have to change, it is my attitude to my commitments that I have to change. I have to learn to be ok with getting something less than A on my grades, I have to reconnect to life on a higher level than this to truly enjoy each day to its fullest.

And I think it’s high time to book my next holiday 😉

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Posted on July 5, 2014, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. I’m guessing you’re in university in an effort to bolster your credentials to further your career. With over two decades’ experience, I’m also guessing you’ve forgotten more than you’re learning. Trust that you have all you need to move forward and that a grade is only reflective of what you know at exam (or assignment) time. The totality of what you know is far deeper and broader than that. So, where’s the next holiday? xoxoM

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    • lol.. M you are right.. I forget more than I am learning but at the same time all that I am learning are constantly expanding my horizons and I love it. I guess right now life is just a little overwhelming and I really do need to take that break.

      Not sure if I should head to the beach or the mountain for the holiday .. still debating ..got any suggestions? xoxo

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